knox gillespie

Yesterday I let go of another friend of many years. I am changing and have less desire to be involved and tolerant of people who are rigid and non loving. 15 years is a long time , for a relationship; and he and I worked together mostly. I don't have many good male friends, and when I look back , he was there for mostly my mundane needs, for work and resources. But not my heart or my world view.

His view is "my way or the highway" , common low game plan for the many who are not awakening themselves . I know it is hard to see the deeper questions in life, yet I will keep asking. What is soul work, and spirit work and finally the NOW. These are thoughts were not close to our relation, so I was just working for money, not the spirit of pottery, there was no soul connection to memory us or art and our NOWNESS was lost to rage defense and shallow words, which I will not live. Very similar to my last relation in the southland, living someones pattern and not their growth.