Be the change

TODAY life was great, the Solarwood festival, good talk with Al after worry that I would be to angered , hearts on pots in the kiln, i resisted again, good paying job knocked on the door, ATT is sending me credits, painted on big pieces and breakfast out and a tad of cleaning the music room... I trust my life, my Angel Lucid buzzes in my head, be the change....

post on looking backwards

Again no new ideas just fear and lack.. When I look upstream I see a world population with big bowls and knives and forks devouring everything.. The mass culture has been running since they discovered cheap cod and salt in the north Atlantic that is 1650...

social creatives

What a nice weekend, spending time with positive thinkers and conjuring up ideas on the new paradigm for this ideational period which we find ourselves rolling towards. Ebow and Eleine just blended so well , her and the senior citizen work and he in his task to discover the right ideas of change that cause the least pain..Then at night Julia Butterfly gave her download on social change. Both included the most people in their visions. big tents big world idea. I am so happy to be with the bright people now, http://www.socialentrepreneurempowerment.com/replays/  is an interesting site of ideas..

And more understanding for me about dominance of the left eye, which produces the most tension for students and unrealized people ...

The stars like a message in a bottle , lure me past my uncertainty.

There is no dark side to the night sky,

the light is the same refection to my child's eye; I remember.

The love and comfort of being included.

When I smile through my eyes, time and eternity follow ,

when I see through my hands, space is a dominion with no corners.

I can not flounder in my respect ,

steadfast to the love that unfolds at my feet.

Waiting in the stillness,

yearning for the touch of my true companion.

another deep day of feeling and good critical thinking. I love this poem it makes me feel the big mind, the grammar of the universe and the love between us. It is easy and difficult to be with people who dark masked , they are doing their best, it 's hard to be someone, At times I don't like this refrain of leaving people behind yet my heart lures me to new and now connections...

As many of you know I am a potter and I work for potters.. Well I'd like to report that my friend installed a solar panel array to help fray the cost of firing the kiln every other day.. His bill has gone from $500 _ $800 dollars a month to $8.00 this month , the bill for the Christmas season. What a deal, to watch the meter run backwards. Need I say more about , oil and gas corporations.

the news is good , carolyn is fine... Got a great opportunity to do public art with my new Cuban friend , Adonis.. So much energy today hard to contain my joy and pressing into the future..We should all detox, and take pressure off the world around us...The last two days , a 100 pots and for Al 100 lbs of clay . This weekend Carolyn and I will relax and enjoy the sun....My life is so good to me, i love today

today, Carolyn is on a new watch for health, I am strong , I can give, she says we have a great relationship with that I can give all, more than I have at any time.. I am more lucid and peaceful , courage is mine, love is ours, and the music of life we feel....

I will hold space....

Tonight we saw a film about the honor of dying. A man filmed his last days, what a great story. The whole family had deep honest moments for weeks.The family made the casket . Had the showing at home for three days of singing with all the people. he died awake and in a state of joy. he blessed everyone with his last words. No ,embalming, funeral home, no business hours to view, all at home ..He had a birthday candle his father made for him , 80+ years ago, it was lit and remembered. It was great , with hope and love we all can pass in love.

Carolyn and I went to the Frey vineyard today for an 8 hour conference on weather and forecasting the north american land mass, what a great treat...lI love learning now my head is swimming with a deep feeling of how we all are connected and live in the rhythms of live..I have 14 variables on forecasting and how the system pulses ...thought I would write but i am tired..

Glad that I have a private journal spot, a few people come here but for the most part I am free to be the writer..I am having mixed feeling about Barbara's situation.. I may be just the another bead on the string of a sad story. A story few wish to understand. Mental illness , sexual violence and being cast out upon the waves leave people in a feeling of passive opinion not feeling of life. Nick is one of the few who can make the bridge of understanding and Carolyn. I am so blessed to have her in my life, someone I can depend on to give deep answers , she is not a label person. She feeds me heart and i am happy...

we found Barbara today, she is in the north.. i guess she has been stAble in living the same place for yeARS.. I hope she may want to open up and be a full person with her sister and me, since we are the only ones that pray for her... It would be great to see a better story begin, her heart needs our love , I hope she can find it....

We are watching War and Peace (1972) Anthony Hopkins, what a story.. We are just having the greatest time watching and talking about this deep wonderful story...we live and enlighten and love life. Living for death , trying to do the minimum is not our story.. I am so happy...